Excess exhaustified 2007 have come to an end. I question myself this question during my own QT,"have I achieve my purpose for this exhibition?" Of course I do. Being able to touch people lives through my testimonies and my life experience. My goal/purpose for this event was to touch/save lives and be able to plant this light into other people and let them be enlighten, so that the people who are 'LOST' can find God in their life and be able to take up this step again in their own time to want to journey with God. At first I don't know how was I going to do it, so I prayed and ask God to be my guide. And nevertheless I touched 2 lives during this year's eXhausified, and I find it really amazing!
At first, I was too scared to approach people alone and so I decided to find someone to partner me to evangelise to the youth around church. I saw Daisy looking so lost at the vending machine, so I walked up to her and ask if she wants to follow me to go around and she said she was also looking for people to go with her. So I suggested going to the front of church, and so we did. Suddenly Daisy asked me hey why not we go that that group of CC3 behind us? I told Daisy I am not ready yet, but I think she didn't get my point and continued to ask me to approach. I don't know why I couldn't bring myself to walk up to them I feel so disturbed by it. I really didn't feel this connection with God and the Holy Spirit to guide me on what I want to say to those youth. In the end, I thought maybe Daisy was prepared, we went up to the CC3 and both of us were speechless and I don't know what to say to them. I felt so discouraged after that because I didn't manage to talk to them.
Before I approach the 2nd target, I told Daisy I would want to go alone. As I was telling her that I saw a lady and a youth looking at the music decoration and no one was talking to them. I said a short prayer as I was walking towards them. The lady is from Risen Christ I think and the youth named Pyrena, a non catholic or Christian. After some introduction the lady asked me a very simple question " What is this event about?" So I told her everything and it lasted about 15mins. After that I decided to bring Pyrena around the art gallery and started telling her how this youth came up with their drawing and poems. I asked her about why she decided to go to Christian and catholic churches to look around and explore. Then she started sharing about her friend bringing her to New Creation church and during her first visit to that church she was touched by the pastor's sharing and she could feel her heart slowly open and the sharing has touched her in many ways and she started crying. Her first experience was an amazing one and from then she never stop searching for God and the amazing part was that she never stop going to different churches to explore and 25th March was her first trip to a catholic church! After what she has shared with me, Edward Chia and Daisy joined in the conversation. Edward Chia shared about how he was a changed person and I also shared with her my life experience on how long I took to want to find God and how I manage to go back to him after I have lost him. After all the conversation and sharing of testimonies, I alone continued bringing her around the gallery and after a while her aunt joined her again. I told them about H2o and what we do and our mission and etc. The aunty also told me how great our group was, how much we believe in God wholeheartedly. So I shared about how God provided me in my life. While I was sharing the lady tears started to roll down from her eyes. Actually I was panicking and thought oh no have I said anything wrong? I asked the aunty if she was ok and she said while I was sharing she could feel the Holy Spirit in the midst of us now. After what she told me my heart started to beat faster and I was panicking more than before, I was on the verge of crying but I controlled. I felt this calling to say a prayer with them, so I asked them if I could pray for them, and they said they really needed that now, so I brought them to a quieter place and did a spontaneous prayer and the words I say during the prayer was like a prayer not said by me but the Holy Spirit. After the praying over ended, I opened my eyes and saw both of them crying and I felt so this sense assurance that the Holy Spirit was with me.
After the praying over and etc for this 2 person I sat at the sales booth and started to ask myself how did I manage to do it? Was it the Holy Spirit who guided me? Many questions started flashing in my mind. I decided to tell Joanna about it and as I was sharing with her she told me she felt touched when I was sharing and she could feel something as I talk to her, she nearly cried. Then next was Nic, I told him and he say "I am feeling it"......I became more terrified and scared after that. Am I doing something good? ( Pondering again )
After a while about 15mins later I started observing this girl who was staring at the art piece alone. I felt this sense of loneliness in her and I got this prompting to walk up to her. This word "unique and special" came into my mind. Without any hesitation I walked up to her and she asked me "could you give me a hug?" while she was hugging me she started crying. I ask her she is she ok. She said she was looking for Daphne. I fell so scared because I was the one she was looking for. She told me that when she was about to walk into the gallery she could feel God presence in the gallery. I brought her to a quieter place and ask her if she wants to share anything with me because I could feel she was feeling troubled. I directed her to a quieter place and she started sharing about her life with me and etc and she even told me she wants to go back to God again but she don't know how. She told me ever since she left The Philippines, she neglected God in her life and whenever she need God, God doesn't seems to be coming back to her, she finds it difficult to find him again. So I told her, she needs to be patience. I told her I took about 1 year or 2 to find God back into my life again and how I am a changed person now and etc. She felt really touched and I ask her if I could pray for her and she agreed. In the prayer I asked her "Do u want to feel God again?", " Are you willing to wait for him patiently?" She said yes and started crying. After the prayer and stuff I could see a smile on her face and she said I am special in God's eye. I felt so touched and started crying.
I am really glad but scared though because this is my first time saving/ touching people life spiritually. I didn't expect myself to be the one doing this and I feel so happy having God in my life again. I THANK God for changing me and shaping me to a better person and now even making me to be his instruments to others. GOD IS REALLY AWESOME!!!
