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.Wednesday, June 13, 2007 .9:57 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
Today school was ok, just that i am too sleepy to concentrate during class. My eyes can hardly open and listen during Mdm Qian nursing studies tutorial lesson. Was so tired. But luckily today extra lesson was cancelled so we all could go home early at 3pm instaed of 5 pm.... i am glad i have a good lecturer for nursing studies and understand us so well. Love being her student!!! My final examination is coming it like so scary haven really started studying for it yet. Monday (18th June 07) - Nursing Studies, (19th June 07)- Biological Science. Praying hard that i can pass and hope i can attempt all question. At least i got one thing less to worry over my 1 month holiday. And my holidays starts on FRIDAY (15th June). Am looking for people to keep me occupied. Call me or leave me a sms. I WANT TO ENJOY MYSELF DURING HOLIDAYS AND NOT JUST STAY HOME AND SHAKE LEG. :)
Some update about myself..... Life for me have been slightly better already, but surrendering to God is kinda of difficult for me. Some things inside me which i don't know what have not been let go yet. I really find it very difficult to forget. Yesterday during teaching at meeting jo talked about "COMPARING YOURSELF WITH OTHERS" it struck me a lot because i always think that people around me is better than me, the life they are leading is better and etc.......... I don't know why but maybe i think too lowly of myself. My jealousy towards others sometime makes me to ponder on how bad am i compared to the people whom i am close to. My family background is worst than other, finanicial wise, studies and etc is like so different from other people. They have a complete family, got people who cares about them and help them and etc....what do i have? Am i special or am i the outcasted one?
....hey don't blame yourself ya,both of us are to be blamed for that. maybe we were both not ready for it. Btw i really hope we can build up the friendship again and not being cold towards each other, the feeling is really bad. Hope we can still talk like a normal friend. I really hope we can overcome it together and talk to each other again. I don't want to lose a friend just because of one incident. Hope we still can confine in each other like how we use to be in the beginning....You are still my best companion in life and closes friend overall in my life, a friend who is special&unique to me in my life!!!...
