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.Thursday, September 06, 2007 .7:57 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
My life just sux so badly this few days :( I am drowning and no one ever bothers about me (maybe only 1 who cares). No one will ever understand how I feel until they experience it. The burden is too much for me to bear it alone. Many things just happen so suddenly. I feel I am being stepped all over again, especially by the people around me. This thing just happened again and again. I am seriously sick of it. I know I am not as fortunate, not as clever, not as talented and worst of all I don't have a complete family to love and support me like you do. Simply to say I am just a person for people to be stepped on. I was dumb to do things that I don't feel comfortable and are being force to do just to be compliance to anyone...It hurt me so badly but I just kept it to myself after that very night. I wish I wasn’t there in the first place. I duno how long will I be suffering in this state alone. I seriously hate this feeling, when will it ever stop?? I can’t hold it anymore longer if this hurt persists. I wish I could do something to save myself from all this miserable and unwanted issues. I wish I could just tear myself away from this world...from all this unnecessary shit. When will all this ever end? My tolerance level is running very low now. Because of the pain I received from what they did, the wounds are so deep, the pain so clearly embedded within me. The scars so profound; yet the mystery still so unsolved. What have I done to deserve this?? I hate this feeling------ you hurt me by the things you said, the way you make me feel like I am in the wrong at the very beginning, and I being the cause of this whole conflict...maybe I cant blame anyone. But I just dislike how both of you put me to no escape route that day. I seriously feel very terrible ever since that night.
