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.Thursday, November 15, 2007 .5:23 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
Last night spoke to my moody Jacqueline, poor Gan Jie was so upset about her studies and all...Hope she is feeling much better today. Anyway i studied for BHS test till about 12 plus 1 am.....and was too tired so i decided to sleep...I endured and endured from 10pm till 1 am just hoping i can do well for todays paper.Today had my BHS test 2 and i was super upset after the paper. I studied so hard for this paper and i think i am going to fail badly and no more good grades this time round. think i am going to disappoint Mdm Tan real badly this time........ Just 1 sickening and irritating idiot who keep distracting me during my paper made me misread a lot of questions. All those who sat behind can be my witness.... I am super pissed off with this one idiot. I think if the person is reading this he will know who iszit....... Actually i was suppose to sit at the corner in the lecture theatre but lecturer ask me to shift in and 1 of my classmate volunteered to move to the front and he sat 1 sit away from me. His reason to sit with me was so that he can copy my paper during the exam. As my words were quite small he could not copy it...and you all know what... he started to whine a lot during the whole paper and i could not concentrate and my thoughts just ran away. Usually i will finish my paper 15 minutes earlier but today i finish on the dot and had no time to check my paper because of that idiot. After the paper my class people started to share their answers and i realised i didnt do my paper correctly, all answers were all so different from the others. My mood became worst after knowing that a lot of my answers were incorrect..... I was so upset and disappointed that i cried after the paper, i could not hold back my anger any longer....... because if i fail this paper its going to be my first time failing my paper in my current course. I have never fail any paper before since yr1 sem1....and have been doing well.....I WILL NEVER WANT YOU TO SIT BESIDE ME AGAIN....NEVER!!!!! YOU ARE THE CAUSE FOR WHAT HAPPEN TODAY!!!
Then after that i called and spoke to Jacqueline to ease my anger and sadness. After speaking to her i felt a little better......Thanks babe!!!! At that point of time i was seriously so upset that i wanted to skip the days lesson and go home,because i really had no mood to carry on studying and to listen during class. But in the end i did not leave. Because a lot of my friends like Jacqueline,Sakina,Stef,Shiffa,Nad and Farhan comforted me,so i decided to stay.
After BHS test 2 had Clinical Nursing 1 hr Theory and lecturer taught us DEATH PROCEDURE which is also known as LAST OFFICE......Lecturer told us a lot of stories about last office and her experiences. I was not in the mood to listen because all i was doing was keep thinking of the paper. I was super quiet during lesson not like my usual self. After that 1 hr of theory the next hour was Practical Time. Did hands-on for last office procedure.....While some of my friends were doing hands-on Shiffa and i suddenly thought of our loved one who had just passed away and what the nurses did to them during last office. My late dad passing just came back and my mood reached to my limits and its like so much things happened today. Then i suddenly thought of what late dad said to me before he left me.....he said:"DEAREST GIRL, BEFORE I GO, MY GREATEST WISH IS THAT YOU WILL BE IN A MEDICAL LINE AND BE LIKE ALL THIS NURSES ONE DAY. TO TAKE CARE OF ALL THIS SICK PEOPLE AND TO GIVE THEM THE BEST YOU CAN..CHOOSE A MEDICAL LINE AND I HOPE YOU CAN DO WELL AND GRANT ME MY WISH ONE DAY."
This was my dad last wish for me before he go and now today i have fulfilled his wish and am in a medical line and is doing well in my course....but today's test and all just make me feel like i am a unfilial child...breaking my dad wish if i were to fail my this paper and my wish of getting GPA 3.5 to 4.0 is shattered. My dad is one of my greatest motivation for me everytime when i wanted to give up and all. But now just 1 idiot i feel so down and disappointed in myself and i know i will regret if this time i fail to pass my test. And as you all know i dont swear because of my religion ....But today i am going to swear that if i fail my this BHS test i am not going to treat this IDIOT in my clique anymore and i wont talk to him until the day i graduated from this course and leave the school.......Never will i talk to you again.....if you are lucky you may have a one word answer back if i care to answer you. You IDIOT!!!!THIS IS GOING TO BE MY GREATEST REGRET IF I FAIL!!!
I STUDIED SO HARD FOR IT AND ALL ITS GONE NOW...
ITS ALL BECAUSE OF 1 IDIOT.....SERIOUSLY 1 SICKENING IRRTATING IDIOT.
Jacqueline:Hey Sis dont be discourage k? Just do your best now its already your last lap and you will be graduating soon in a few months time.....Dun give up now k? Anyway Babe......Thanks for your comfort today. Though my mood is not back to normal yet....But i thank you for today k? Seeing you during lunch break at cafe 2 was the best thing today also.....Love you babe!!!:)Farhan,Shiffa and Nad (my gf): Hey girls and Farhan thanks for cheering me up just now during clinical nursing class. And for Shiffa,dun worry so much k? I din know you and i was thinking about the same things.....Smile and be happy:)Sakina and Stef: Thanks for the hugs you gave me today. You both showered me a lot of love:)Anyway today my school had careers fair took many many goodies back home......Manage to explain things out with Ms Cheryl for skipping her lesson yesterday and making her happy again......Anyway i went to sign up for SGH sponsership but still am on pending till they call me for interview........Hope i can make the right decision for myself and not have any regrets after that.... Ok its a long long post for the day.........I shall stop here.....Going to call my Sis now....:(
DAFFY'S MOOD TODAY...
