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.Saturday, March 22, 2008 .11:17 AM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
BUSY.LOADED.TIRED.SICK.STRESS.MOODY.SAD.
ALL THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS :(
Just started my 3 weeks holiday :)Going to rest at home and replenish my energy till next friday.Then 2nd and 3rd week of holiday will be having many outings with friends!!!!!Next Friday there is going to be a outing with my classmates. [MOODY.SAD.SICK] This week is a horrible week i guess....Many things happened.Having a big quarrel......Due to some stupid people ideas and big mouth.After that i was feeling so damn stress,sad.sick and tired and etc....I didnt expect things to turn out this way.I dont wish to explain any further.But dont worry people i am feeling much better already.Thanks to those people who have stood by me.Thanks to all.... i think you all know who you are.[STRESS.BUSY.LOADED ]
Started year 2 semester 1 class this week.First day in school was really tedious and stressful.Got to know my lecturer for my Year 2 semester 1....Got 3 modules but only got to know 2 of my lecturer.For Gerontology elective---Still Unknown...Biological Sciences 2---Mrs Joanna TangPatient Care A (PCA)---Mdm Esther HengLots and lots of homework........Not done!!!!!Treasurer-auditor stuff to update too!!!!
My Bio Sci 2 lecturer is nice but she have very high expectation of the class.Her teaching skills is really good but the module itself is kinda of difficult to understand.So hope i can buck up and do my revision during my 3 weeks holidays in order to do well.PCA lecturer which is my Class Advisor is so damn irritating dislike her man. First few days the class already have bad impression of her. As a class advisor i think the lecturer should actually get to know us better and not drawing a line between the students and Lecturer.She is irritating and inhuman lecturer i have ever known. She only cares about us to be the top class again but not caring about emotional,social life......This week for Biological Science we covered,WHOLE TOPIC on ENDOCRINE GLAND SYSTEM..Omg i only understand like half of it....Year2 is really tough. Indepth lecture and tutorial...Me,Nad and Stef were really struggling during day 1 in class.I hope when i do revision at home this week i will understand the topic better and better each day.Our body system is really amazing you know there are alot of things inside that we dont know.School reopen gonna touch on URINARY SYSTEM!!!!!Anyway had insulin injection phase test too...I shall share the horrible scene first....First, the stupid automatic bed wasnt working!!!The insulin injection medication cannot be inserted into the fake dummy abdominal!!!!My hands were struggling and shivering because i was super nervous!!!!The stupid assessor keep asking if i studied and practise well for this practical test!!!!The assessor got nothing much to pick on me for my procedure then she pinned pointed on my part where i injected the medication.She said i was suppose to stretch the abdominal area of the patient....I was like huh??? I was not taught that way...And she added on saying that i didnt pay attention in class.I asked other of my friends and read my notes nothing was stated that we must stretch it.SO STUPID!!!! I am pin pointed for that la for no reason!!!!But i guess it was all ok. Hope i can score!!!!!I manage to remember every step but only forgot to swab the insulin medication.COMMENTS after the insulin injection phase test.....My assessor asked me if i think i would pass this test?I answered " eh,i think so"Assessor" You will pass but you wont get fantastic marks and grades"Omg when i heard that i was so sad and my high hopes was shattered :(Mdm Yeow was also assessing my class....she saw my face and she smiled at me.I think she expected me to do well i think.Because she told me she has high expectation of me!!!!!Oh man i think i am going to disappoint her :(This holiday i am going to do serious revision and study hard in order to score well :)I wanna get as high GPA as possible.DAFFY CAN DO IT!!!![TIRED]I am so dreaded by the things around me.I am so sick, tired and etc by all the negative feeling inside me.Trying to act like nothing is happening in my life is so damn uncomfortable.I may look strong and happy on the outside...But deep down i am crying inside and nobody knows.Sometime i really thought of just being alone outside.
But my thought just keep running and make me even more upset and disappointed about my current life for what i am facing.
Life isnt that fantastic for me......
Although it may seems alright.....
I just wish to have someone to show me some concern.....God i hope you can show me someone in my life who can be someone i trust and be open to (her/him)....Just someone close to be i will be more than contented..... JUST A SPECIAL SOMEONE I AM MORE THAN CONTENTED.....ANYWAY TOMORROW IS EASTER......SO HAPPY ADVANCED EASTER TO ALL MY DEAREST ONES :) !!!
