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.Saturday, May 31, 2008 .10:20 AM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
Slept at about 12am yesterday. And woke up at 9am today.This few days i have been so down and stress up with the things that i got to worry for.Glad that Mdm Mavis Yeow and Mrs Joanna Tang are supporting me inside-out.Giving me encouragement and the comfort.Their piority for me now is to do well in my 2.1 semester exam first and put other distractors aside.I NEED SUPPORT IN LIFEMdm yeow asked me to pray and leave everything up to God.Ask him to let me focus in my exam and let him take control of everything in my life right now.I promised her i will do that....but i am trying hard to believe and give my whole up to him.Its difficult but i will try to do it.Especially worrying that things will go your opposite way.I have been standing strong in front of my friends. I try not to make them worry for me.I dun wanna to make my problem affect them.Family isnt supporting me to any extend. I am independent at home.I dun rely on them to do things for me.I have grown up.....I must plan my own life and do things that are right.I dun need them even when i am at my lowest point. What is the point of depending on them.I am a burden to her since i was 4 years old. After knowing my mutiple illnesses.Who wish to lead a life with multiple illnesses. No one. You think its easy?Its not easy. I have to cover everything and make it as if i am like normal people leading a healthy lifestyle.But the fact is i cant.Because i have it and i cant deny it.I am having difficulties accepting what is going on in my life. But no one can help me.People say....Just believe in God. And he will plan and do miracles in my life.Paint a dull black painting into a colourful scenary.Life can be beautiful if you look on the brighter side.All i need now is a trustable group of friends be it lecturers,friends,and etc.I treasure my friends and teachers more than anyone else. I confess!!!BETRAYERI really hate it when people turn their back on me and walk away. When i keep stretching out my hand to help me when i can.I dislike people who think they ae the best after one time of success.I think you succed once doesnt mean you can look down on people and give negative comments.It really hurt me seeing you do or say things which hurt people.You say that the class seems so different.But have you ever reflect it on yourself? Yes everything is like opposing you because you are the one who change and not the people around you.I am sorry but i have to let it out.....Because of the hurt that you cause to me it makes me draw myself away from you.I know you may think i am unresonable and trying to mix with other people except you but i have no choice i need friends to support me.You dont even give a damn when i told you what to me during Bio Sci class.I was really very hurt the comments you gave me. Like "i cant be bothered".You can gossip about me all you want to other people or even to the people around me.I dun care.....just hope you reflect on yourself before you say others.No one is trusting you much if you dont know.You have disappoint me deeply.Special thanks
Thanks Sya,Nadiah,Firin,Farhan and Jessica for consolling me and constantly talking to me.
Life isnt that easy for me right now.
Not easy to go through what i am going through right now.
The fear,sadness and hurt all piling on me.
BUT MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SAYING I AM A STRONG GIRL.
Hope all this things will not affect me in my upcoming exams.
Because i wanna do well.....All As for this semseter!!!!Later meeting small siti at amk MRT and will be heading down to Nadiah place for group study.Hope it will be a good environment for me and to finish studying what i am suppose to finish.That is all for now....might be back again blogging after studying at Nad's Place.Be right back!!!!
