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.Thursday, July 03, 2008 .12:43 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
COUNTING DOWN-3 MORE DAY.Yesterday afternoon i was glad i spent a great time with Joanna at Novena. Yipee!But i should declare i was kinda of sad and disappointed before i meet her up...Anyway Its like after so long since we met up. The last time we went out was like....MY BIRTHDAY???Wanted to go out with her before she left for Sydney- But failed :(After 1 1/2 weeks when she came back from Sydney- Failed again :(During last week of my hoiliday- SUCCESS :)!!!Jo brought me to a Japanese Pasta cafe to eat...The food was Superb :)I ordered Cabonara Pasta...and it was super filling. It came with 3 other sides.I was struggling to finish it. Hehe. Keep asking Jo to eat slower......When she finish everything i was still struggling on my main dish.
Haha.....After our late lunch we went window shopping, laughing session and etc.....Had a great time going out with her :)Then we went to pre-ordered the t-shirts and we got it at a better rate. Yay!!!Yesterday was fun going out with her.....A close friend to me always being there for me when i am at my lowest always there to support me. Thanks Jo daffy love you!!!But the fun ended off for me when we both headed home...................Had a big riot and war at home.Sometimes i really wonder if i should trust her words.Or should i doubt her?I am isnt going through a good time at home...............Staying at home everyday is like a phobia to me.Just hate it when situation occurs again and again.Why cant i lead a good life at home like my friends do?Sometimes it really kept me thinking.'I dont give her any trouble.....I am all right independent.....I do what i am suppose to do.....I use my daily expenses and pathetic attachment pay to help support the family.....I study hard and you dont even give me words of compliment at all but only demoralizing remarks.....I tolerate it all if you dint know.I only start flaring up when things is getting out of control.I have to support and fight for my rights at time...I cant always listen to you even when you are wrong or unfair.I really dont know what to say,but i dun stand a position in this family ever since dad's passing.I really dun understand why this thing is happening to me :(Couldnt sleep last night,Spoke to Sya and Shiffa till about 4am this morning.Today i spent my day home all day long...Suppose to go out with cliques but i decided to forgo it since there was conflict at home.Sorry cliques!!!Stuck infront of my computer....go round reading people's blog.....when it came to Feezah's blog...Ermmm, feeling kinda of scared man.
She was complaining about her sleeping habits, its like so hard to adjust back.Then i started to think of mine, i sleep like 2 or 3am and wake up like 11plus12 everyday since holiday started.She is also panicking about not reading up her notes for attachment.....I was like hmmmm..........for me i read up a bit but nothing is going into my head.Everything in my tutorial notes and PCA book is like so foreign me.Half of the time i am playing,sleeping and doing stupid things in Mdm Esther Heng's class....There shows my results, a B in PCA instead of something better for a core module. I really wonder how and i going to survive through in RAFFLES HOSPITAL!!!!!"DAFFY WAKE UP YOU ARE NOW IN RAFFLES HOSPITAL NO MORE IN SGH.NOW YOU ARE HANDLING WITH PAYING CLASS PATIENTS!!!!IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG YOU ARE GOING TO BE IN A DEEP DEEP TROUBLE!!!!"Mdm Yeow chose me for a reason.I should make her proud and not disappoint her. She has so much hope for me and she is awaiting to hear that i am doing well in Raffles.I should make my cohort of nurses proud and not disappoint them. I should do my best!!!!I should aim for a DISTINCTION again for attachment and nothing less.....WORK HARD DAFFY YOU CAN DO IT!!!!Grandma is sick again she dint come over to my place......Poor Grandma wonder how is she at home :( Hope she is fine.Tomorrow eXhaustified debrief at Chia's brothers place.Sat still available.But may have plans!!!Sun is EMPOWERED healing rally...I dont know if i can go for all this...I just hope i can.Because when work start next week its going to be tough and busy period where i can hardly meet up with my love ones.Next semester is going to be a busy semester too.....Final year final semester before graduation.......C'MON DAFFY ITS THE FINAL LAP. GRADUATION!!!![I miss you my girl.....Wrok hard i am always here for you!!!]~from someone special~
