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.Saturday, January 17, 2009 .11:50 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
Yesterday was my last day in ward 77.Hmmm... i miss those SN, EN and NYP PRCP students who have journeyed with me during my 2weeks stay in that special elective ward. Haematology/oncolgy ward.And yes of course i miss my patients :(My presence and service to them is like a hope for them.Its really sad to see 2 of my dearest patient passed on.Next week will be in ward 55B...Heard that the ward is rather nice...Its a surgical posting (Urology and ENT).I will be doing my NIGHT SHIFT this coming week....Hmmm wonder how iszit going to be like....Hope i can find skills to do and accomplish all asap in this ward.Going to be in this ward for 3 weeks!!!Ok something terrifying happened yesterday...First time i slept so much, its as good as being COMA on the bed.Came back from work yesterday at 430pm....Nap-ed from 5pm till about 9pm then was dinner from 9 to 930pm.I messaged Joanna at about 930pm and slept after that till the next morning.Slept from 930pm till today morning at 120pm....And i was freaking panicking when i realise it was 120pm already because i needed to be in church from eXcess art ministry meeting at 2pm.I was so scared that something might happen when i slept so much.Its my first time having this experience of sleeping till my hands and legs could not be felt.Its like your limbs muscles were all gone and separated from your body.Its super scary, i was so scared that i sms Jo :ssI was so in deep sleep until even when my house opposite construction was starting work making hell lot of noise i was still sleeping.Even my sis who is a heavy sleeper was awaken by the noise.Me a super light sleeper cant even wake up...Its really scary when i come to think of it.I hope nothing will happen to me when i sleep.... i am really scared...seriously...No one knows how i feel.Everyone just say to me "daffy maybe you are really tired"....Haiz.....Anyway i duno why but i thank God for letting me speak up to you and telling you how i feel.
I do feel the love, care and concern coming from you......
But sometimes i duno why jealousy keep coming to me when i see you with other people.
I feel that you only give me the love for like a spilt second but to other people you are giving them more.
It really make me think and reflect.
I am already trying my best to approach you whenever i am troubled or down with anything even my happiest moment i shared with you.
I dont know why i am thinking like that but like i told you before i dont get the love at home so i am hoping you can give this love to me.....
I really appreciate when i am being love.....
really.....
My new year resolution was to build my relationship with you stronger, i really hope we can work on it together :(((Labels: i feel unwanted
