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.Monday, May 25, 2009 .10:11 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
CHILDHOOD DEPRESSION
Reviving my childhood memories for the past 1 week.
Environment, People, programmes, stories, articles and dreams have been leading me back to my past time....
Its not easy to struggle alone for the past 4 years without someone who is dear to me.
His diminished figure of him kept appearing to me in my dreams...
That shows how much he actually loves me as his dearest daughter.
When i was 5months old i was being send in and out of hospital due to bronchitis and pneumonia...
Everyday he would carry me from my nanny's place to bring me for treatment.
When i was born i wasnt being brought home until when i was 5....
He pampered me so much just to gain a family love and bond that he dint give me since my mum gave birth to me...
So thats when i was being brought home.
When i was 12 something happened....
His wanted to do a blood transplant but then his blood was incompatible.
So all he could do was to constantly give moral and spiritual support.
When i was 16...
It was his ever first parent teacher meeting....
Got whole lot of a scolding but then his scolding was more of a motivation to me....
That was the last time i got to talk to him as a daughter...
After that was his 10days of lying in the hospital bed in SGH...
It was my turn to take care of him for the last time....
Within 10days he passed away, NOT letting me speak to him for the last time before he breathe his last....
Since then was 4 years coming to 5 spend time in a isolated room at home.
Nobody knows when i am sad and thinking of him because i always put on a brave front, thinking that everything is alright,
I may look strong on the outside but deep down HE IS NOT FORGOTTEN....
He is not some stranger but my BELOVED DAD...Labels: None can replace his love for me
