Random Posts!!!
.Thursday, July 02, 2009 .11:57 PM .
DAPHNE CASSANDRA NG
Another night of thinking.Did i made the right move?Was i wrong being concern?Everything started again.I dont understand why people dun see their friends helping them change for the better.Why people arent receptive about things.Ever since i step up as a leader i have always wanted to journey with people,But time and time again i feel very guilty when i realise people arent changing.It makes me think if i had done enough.I noe i have been hard on myself and have high expectations.Sometimes it really makes me feel like i am bothering too much...I sacrifice every thing to do God's work and be his instrument....I even sacrifice my own life to get involve in people's lives.I am putting people above self.:(((To say the truth my health isnt doing well.....Each time i go for my doctor's appointment my blood count just kept dropping.Everytime time when i get up, be it from squating or getting up from lying in bed or just merely doing house work...Giddiness and hyperventilation occurs....Sometimes double vision and serious headache added on too.I am keeping this away from everyone.I dun want anyone to think that i am sick and have restriction to the things i do.I am even keeping this from my own family.I just want to lead my life happily without any worries,I am lifting my life up to God.I know he will take control of every situation that i am in.I know he is here with me.I just want to live everyday like how my normal healthy friends have been leading.I just want to be happy and do what i can.I just want a simple life......Labels: everything happen for a reason i guess
